From lgarg@crl.nmsu.edu Tue Feb 22 11:27:59 1994 Title : Duncton Wood -The Duncton Chronicles 1(till Page 365) Author : William Horwood Published By : Arrow Books Limited 20 Vauxhall Bridge Road,London SW1V 2SA Edition : 1986 GOT ________________________________________________________________________________ p.69-70: [NP] 'He's an elder, like me,' explained Hulver, 'and he's mentioned you once or twice.' Hulver leaned forward like a fellow conspirator and whispered, 'He's not pleased with your progress. You're not nasty enough!' Hulver laughed and Bracken decided he rather liked him, but still didn't know what to say. He was in the presence of an elder he had heard of as the wisest in the system, so what could he say? Hulver fell into silence again, snout quivering in the blue evening light and slowly lowering on to outstretched paws as he contemplated nightfall. [NP] Bracken's (* MIND WAS IN A WHIRL *..) --- the prayer had left him feeling very strange and, as far as he was concerned, it hung magically in the air about them, making everything beyond it seem dim and unclear. (.* HE FELT LOST IN HIS THOUGHTS, LITERALLY LOST, FOR HE COULDN'T FIND WHERE AMONG THEM HE ACTUALLY WAS.*) The old mole crouched before him as if he were one of the trees, or a plant growing or the soil, part of the whole thing that seemed around him contained in the prayer. (* HE WAS FINALLY DRAGGED --- that's what it felt like --- OUT OF THESE THESE THOUGHTS BY HULVER,*) who asked him in a gentle voice,'Why have you come over to the slopes, can you tell me that?' Bracken started to tell him, explaining how he was interested in the system, liked exploring and ... and soon he was telling Hulver everything. p.70-71: 'Now you are welcome to use this tunnel, though perhaps I should say continue to use it. But I'm going down to my burrow, which is a little way off, because it's so much quieter.' And with that he ran off into the night. Bracken following his course by sound until he went down an entrance and his sound was lost. [NP] For a while Bracken crouched in the night alone, wondering about Hulver and enjoying the unusual calm and peace he felt. (* A SNATCH OF THE GRACE HULVER HAD SPOKEN CAME BACK TO HIM AND HE LET ITS WORDS RUN THROUGH HIS TIRED MIND LIKE THE SOUND OF THE BREEZE IN THE LONG GRASS BY THE EDGE OF THE WOOD:*) 'Let no mole adown our bodies That may hurt our sorrowing souls.' p.76: [NP] Hulver, too, was affected by their meeting. She seemed so, so . . . so alive! Eager, and sighing, standing and crouching, sad, loving. (* 'Elder meetings never start on time, anyway', HE THOUGHT TO HIMSELF,*) settling down comfortably by her as a sign that he would talk for a little at least. 'I'll tell you about Rebecca, your namesake, if you like, Rebecca the Healer of the Ancient System.' p.76: Rebecca nodded happily; she had heard all about Rebecca but she didn't mind hearing it again, not from Hulver. [NP] But Hulver himself didn't know what he was going to say, since (* IT ALL CAME INTO HIS MIND AND OUT AS WORDS *) without him seeming to have too much to do with it. He felt very peaceful. 'Most of the stories you've heard are nonsense, I'm sure; harmless nonsense, of course. It's just that we all like a good tale and if there seems to be a gap in the telling of it, we fill it up with something we like to think might have been-- and who knows, it might have been!' (* HULVER FELT AS IF HIS WORDS WERE EXPLORING A TUNNEL DOWN WHICH HE HIMSELF HAD NEVER BEEN.*) p.194-195: 'Get her food,' snapped Rune impatiently to the henchmole, who did so with ill grace. [NP] 'Last bloody time I find worms for a female, I can tell her that,' he muttered angrily as he hurled three worms down before her in the tunnel where she lay. (* RUNE NOTED THIS REMARK DOWN IN HIS MEMORY.*) He didn't trust moles who lost their tempers over something as trivial as that, or even lost their tempers at all. p.200: Mandrake turned his back on the owl and left down the tunnel towards Rue's burrow. His gait was suddenly heavy and ponderous and he felt tired. Tired and old. It was true that in his confrontation with the owl image he had, finally, lost all sense of physical fear, though Mandrake lived in too great a haze of anger and confusion to know the fact. But when a mole loses such fear, (* THE FREEDOM HE FINDS MAY SERVE ONLY TO MAKE HIM PREY TO THE DARKER, MORE PERILOUS FEARS THAT LURK BEYOND ALL MOLES' BODIES AND INHABIT THEIR MINDS.*) [EP] p.201: [NP] Finally he came forward to her with enough noise for her to know that he was there. She looked at him but did not run away as he expected. Instead, her snout lowered in a gesture of total defeat and she asked him quietly, 'Have you come to kill me?' [NP] (* SUCH A THOUGHT WAS SO FAR FROM HIS MIND --- INDEED, IT WAS SO FAR FROM HIS EXPERIENCE *) --- that it quite took his breath away. He saw that she was small and bedraggled and seemed very frightened, while he (and he looked at the now much glossier fur above his paws and felt the much more powerful muscles that had developed since he had started to regain his strength) was fit and well and must seem confident. Why, he was an adult, and a male, and strong! p.210: [NP] With her fourth dawn away from Barrow Vale, the dew was thick on the pastures and Rebecca woke in the temporary burrow she had made near them, feeling at one with the change that now moved so excitedly about her, rather than just a delighted observer of it. (* FROM ITS FIRST MOMENT, THE DAY SEEMED TO CARRY HER ALONG SO THAT SHE SURRENDERED TO ITS WILL AND DID WHATEVER IT SEEMED TO WANT.*..) She was as hungry as ever on waking, but this put no urgency at all into her stretching and grooming, which became a timeless exercise in self-content. Time did not matter. Eventually, her coat glossy and her eyes happy, she burrowed about for food before taking to the surface to see the day. (..* AND THE DAY SEEMED SO FREE WITH ITSELF THAT IT ALMOST ASKED THAT *) she should break free from the grass of the wood's edge and go out on to the fresh pastures, the cool dew catching her paws and belly. p.225-226: The words that Hulver had taught him now came back and each one seemed to carry a meaning for him which he had not seen when he first recited them: 'The grace of form Tbe grace of goodness The grace of suffering The grace of wisdom The grace of true words The grace of trust The grace of whole-souled loveliness.' (* THEN HIS MIND FELL SILENT FOR A TIME *) and (* HE SAW FOR A MOMENT PAST THE IMPENETRABLE, IMPASSIVE FACE OF THE Stone INTO THE WORLD OF TRUST AND LOVE BEYOND IT.*) p.226: [NP] Weary, her wet paws sore, (* HER MIND DAZED AND UPSET *) Rebecca crouched down in the Stone clearing looking up at the Stone, unafraid of the strange mole who crouched off to her right in the pouring rain. She stared at the Stone for a long time, wondering at its size and majesty, losing herself in its strength. p.241: [NP] 'September is a time of change. Leaves may be a delicate green in June, but by September they decay. Some moles mate in September . . . some moles like it, want it . . . then. Or now, I should say.' [NP] 'Mating ... Rebecca ... now ...' The elements were beginning to combine into swirling red and black poison in Mandrake's mind. [NP] 'On the wood's edge, near the pastures', went on Rune, adding hastily, but deliberately not hastily enough, an explanation of what he meant: 'That's where I've been. Fighting Pasture moles who had taken a Duncton female into their darkness and done to her what she allowed them to do. Trechery and danger.' [NP] 'You mean Rebecca?' asked Mandrake, enraged but fascinated at the same time. With each word that Rune now spoke (* A PICTURE OF HIS REBECCA, HIS DAUGHTER REBECCA, HIS UNTOUCHED CHILD, HARDENED ON THE EDGE OF HIS MIND WHERE NOMOLE AT FIRST LIKES TO LOOK, BUT TO WHICH A JEALOUS MOLE MAY EASILY BE DRAWN.*) A picture of fur and darkness, of moving haunches and talon scratches on backs, of moist snouts long and pointing and open mouths, and white teeth and sensual smiles in the dark of a forbidden burrow. And his Rebecca among them. His daughter! p.245-246: [NP] When one or other of the two great males hit the side of the entrance, the whole burrow shook and earth flew, as Rebecca watched them, at first helpless and confused. As she did so, (* A POWERFUL AND UNWANTED EXCITEMENT RAN THROUGH HER, A FORBIDDEN AND OBSCENE EXCITEMENT THAT SHE TRIED TO BLOT FROM HER MIND:*) the excitement of seeing the two huge males both of whom she loved, fighting for her. p.264: He scratched her with his paw, nuzzled hard into her, pressed himself closer and closer to her, as she twittered and champed and swung her back round to him and then back-quartered into him and he into her. [NP] (* 'He's like a pup', SHE THOUGHT DELIGHTEDLY,*) because she had never mated before with a mole who was barely an adult. But when he finally understood what it was about, and was on her and taking her, she was surprised at his strength and laughed with pleasure at his delight in her and at the shuddering way he relaxed into her. p.275: [NP] The tunnel was small and crudely burrowed into the subsoil, with a packed floor, rough walls and a simple rounding for the roof. After a short way, it split into two and, taking the right-hand fork, Bracken found that it almost immediately split into two again. Worse, the tunnel began to curve confusingly and then cut across other tunnels, and split yet more times. To add to this (* spatial confusion,*) the deeper he got, the louder the stressed murmuring he had first heard so ominously in the Chamber of Dark Sound became, while (* THE ECHOES OF HIS PAWSTEPS kept coming back to him, running in from all directions, TRIPPING OVER THEMSELVES IN THEIR EAGERNESS TO CONFUSE HIM,*) disappearing off behind him. Until he stopped, lost, and with (* no idea *) of whether he was going forward or backward, away from the centre of the system or towards it. [NP] It took him two long hours to find his way back again, and then only with the greatest skill and patience as he marked each turn and (* THOUGHT CAREFULLY BACK TO THE TWISTS AND TURNS HE COULD REMEMBER.*) [NP] It was while he was in the worrying process of doing this, crouching and thinking what to do next and making no noise himself, that he began to suspect what the vague murmurings he had first heard were, or might be. p.288: [NP] Yet, as he crouched there, upset and frustrated, (* FROM THE LIGHT-FILLED RECESSES OF HIS SOUL, WHERE THE CHERISHED THINGS OF THE HEART LIE STILL AND WAITING, THERE CAME A MEMORY OF THE Stone.*) Not as he had last seen it, with the blood of Hulver and Bindle staining its shadow, but as he had first seen it so long ago when he was little more than a pup and had been led up Duncton Hill on the long trek, when there was no shame in celebrating Midsummer. [NP] It had stood massive, awe-inspiring and, somehow, safe, and he had looked up at it, as the elders did their chanting and (* ALL HAD FADED AWAY FROM HIS MIND BUT ITS SIZE AND MAJESTY, AND HIS SENSE THAT HE WAS PART OF IT.*) In the many moleyears since, he had only ever thought of the Stone as a distant thing, for (* THE SENSE OF GRACE THAT FLOWED INTO HIM THEN WAS OVERSHADOWED BY THE FIGHTING AND LIVING, AND THE MATING,*..) that was the reality of Duncton in his time. [NP] But now (..* THE GRACE RETURNED, DISTANT AND UNCERTAIN, BUT THERE ALL THE SAME.*) He turned back down into the tunnels and went straight to Curlew. p.296: [NP] Mekkins was touched by the change that had come over Curlew herself since Rebecca, and then Comfrey, had come. They seemed to have put new life into her and the mole he remembered as being so frightened and withdrawn was now bustling with activity and full of purpose. (* 'Things certainly work out in a strange way', HE THOUGHT TO HIMSELF *) as he departed, and that was something to take comfort from. p.312: Then they were nuzzling each other, snouting softly at each other and whether the sounds they made were of tears or joy, sobs or laughter, Mekkins could not tell. They were the sounds of discovered love. [NP] (*'It's Longest Night!' THOUGHT Mekkins TO HIMSELF,*) filled suddenly with a sense of its joyous mystery and witnessing for himself the power of the Stone to make moles see each other. 'It's Longest Night!' Involuntarily he began to sing a little song to himself and wander around the clearing to get a view of the Stone on the side that was lit by the moon. [NP] Beneath it, Rebecca and Bracken seemed almost still, for Rebecca's nuzzlings were of the gentlest, quietest sort, while Bracken's paw caresses were of the softest and most tender. p.313: [NP] He answered with a Marsh End ditty, and Rebecca started to laugh with a hint of the old freedom Mekkins had thought he would never hear again, the laughter that put hope into a mole's heart. But it was deeper and quieter than it had once been. She stopped suddenly and turned again to Bracken and just looked at him. And he looked at her. (* 'Why, she understands!' HE WAS THINKING. 'He knows!' SHE SAID TO HERSELF.*) [NP] 'Where are the worms, then?' said Mekkins. 'Where's the feast? I don't know about you, Rebecca, but I ain't come all the way up 'ere just to sing a song and get no food. Where is it, then?' p.314: And to see that there was something between these two young moles that gave joy to an older mole like him to see, and which anymole with half a heart would want to cherish and protect. But he wondered if it was just something that had happened on Longest Night and which, in the morning, might not seem quite so powerful as it did now. (* 'Still, a mole mustn't go spoiling the present by fearing the future', HE THOUGHT TO HIMSELF,*) and so, more than content with the joy of the night, he finally fell asleep. [NP] Bracken, on one side of the main burrow, and Rebecca on the other, both with their snouts between their paws, (* FELL INTO THINKING THE WARM, RANDOM THOUGHTS of the contented tired. Mekkins laughing, spring, dangers past, Rose, Rune, Rue, echoing tunnels. Curlew's eyes, Comfrey, Cairn, Cairn, oh Cairn, the Stone, what a time it'd been and how much had happened.*) p.315: [NP] (* HE DID NOT THINK ABOUT THE ANSWER BUT RATHER WALLOWED WITH IT IN AN IMAGE OF THE STONE, WONDERING WHAT THE QUESTION MEANT.*) He could say he didn't know, and that was true; but it wasn't really, because he knew there was something there. Why, there was so much he hadn't told them. He had got as far as the circular tunnel with the seven entrances into the central part, but after that he had felt it unwise to go on and had steered the conversation away. [NP] 'I don't know', he said finally. 'Do you?' [NP] She wanted to say 'No', to shout 'No!' because she didn't, she couldn't, it had let her litter die, it had let those talons come down, there was no Stone, there was nothing, nothing; except that an image of Comfrey came to her suddenly and she saw that there was something. (* There was so much they hadn't talked about, she and Bracken, SHE THOUGHT TO HERSELF.*) [NP] She raised her head off her paws and looked at him, and found that he was looking at her so deeply that her body seemed to fall away and only her heart or her soul was there; while it seemed to Bracken, when she raised her head to look at him, that there was nothing he could not tell her if she wanted to know, and that most of all, he would like to tell her about the Stone, for that was finally where everything, for good or ill, seemed to be. [NP] He started to say her name again and to move a little towards her, but then he looked beyond her to the entrance to the burrow and (* THOUGHT BEYOND THAT TO THE TUNNELS HE HAD CREATED, AND BEYOND THEM to the secret way he had made to the circular tunnel, and ON BEYOND, racing along left and right, into the labyrinths with echoes all around and his skin and fur, his whole body, calling to the Stone, and great shadows of roots, great falls and rises of roots, silent and completely motionless, while BEYOND THEM, calling him, BEYOND THEM *) ...[dots in text] p.334: [NP] Mandrake's massive body moved uncomfortably in the (* DARK, HIS OWN DARK, ACHING WITH THE LIFELONG EFFORT OF SEEING BEYOND THE WHIRLING BLIZZARD IN HIS MIND AND FAILING, ALWAYS NOT QUITE SEEING,*) but remembering that he might have, with Sarah, who surely could hear him calling when he took her and he tried to say something but his body and the darkness wouldn't let him. Yes, she heard him calling out of the blizzard, oh Sarah, she heard him out of the Siabod ice.He membered that. Or was it Rebecca? With Rebecea. On and in Rebecca when she heard him . . . yes, she did! She heard him. 'Where is she now? Where is she?' p.353: [NP] Violet started to protest, but Bracken gazed at her with such strength and love that she simply retreated back to Rebecca's flank and waited for once for the adults to do whatever they had to do. 'Rebecca will take care of you and I'll be back', Bracken said gently to her. 'And don't you chatter so much this time!' [NP] For a moment Rebecca and Bracken stared across the burrow at each other and the light that seemed to have gone from them shone again, and time was not important.(* 'Why it's there and always will be', THOUGHT REBECCA, KNOWING IT WAS TRUE.*) [NP] 'I'm not going either', said Curlew suddenly. 'These are my tunnels and they've served me well, and I'll defend them. I couldn't live anywhere else, anyway.' Her mind was quite made up so that, with a shake of his head in puzzlement, Mekkins led Rebecca and the youngsters away, and the burrow was suddenly silent of them. p.361: Despite his overt weakness he seemed quite unafraid, although a semblance of fear--very like that he had shown before the other mole--would sometimes cross his face. Bracken soon realised that this was a guise, a kind of mask he wore to appear so pathetic that nomole would wish to persist in tracking. (* 'Perhaps that's why he's managed to survive', THOUGHT Bracken,*) whose only knowledge of crippled moles was that they never survived their first summer because they could not get territory of their own. p.385: [NP] Bracken thought of the Stone, the Duncton Stone, and looked automatically towards where he knew, without knowing, it must be. Its pull had been there all the time, only he had not bothered to think of it before. But he did not face it directly --- it made him feel too desolate and lost to do that. [NP] He turned his back to it and snouted out again, seeing if he could feel any other pulls. Well, of course, there was Uffington; he could feel that. Deep and distant but always strong. He crouched silent and still, (* LETTING HIS MIND WANDER OUT OF HIS BODY AND AROUND THE HORIZON IN THE CIRCLE.*) It was hard not to be continually pulled by Duncton and Uffington, the two Stone pulls with which he was familiar, (* BUT SLOWLY HE FORGOT THEM, PUTTING THEM IN THE BACKGROUND OF HIS BODY AND MIND AND SEEING WHAT ELSE HE COULD FEEL.*) [NP] Nuneham. He tried to reach out to it somehow. If it had a Stone, then surely he would feel it as well! But he suddenly grew tired and ran back for cover again. [NP] p.397-398: [NP] She taught Rebecca by instinct rather than by design, for her mind was as delightfully illogical as her burrow. Rhymes and sayings, thoughts and words, ideas and laughter, all came at their own pace and in their own way, and Rebecca was barely conscious that she was learning anything. Like the old flower rhyme that Rose taught her one day to illustrate the herbs that give a burrow a nice, long-lasting scent, and which Rebecca only discovered she remembered many moleyears later: [p.398] Germander and marjoram, Basl, meadowlweet, Datsy-tops and tansies, Fennel with brnet; Roses in August, Lavender in June, Maudlin and red mint-- None will go too soon. [NP] They talked about a thousand things, but (* WHAT Rose MOST PUT INTO REBECCA'S MIND WERE SEEDS OF THOUGHT TO GROW RATHER THAN FINISHED PLANTS TO FADE.*) And she waited for Rebecca to ask the questions. p.411-412: [NP] The dream seemed to continue. As Bracken watched, still half conscious, he heard a fifth mole slowly enter the chamber on his left. He turned his throbbing head towards it, and there he saw Mullion standing open-mouthed, taking in the scene before him. (* Bracken could almost hear Mullion's thoughts think themselves.*) [NP] Three moles lying around the chamber walls as if swept aside by a raging storm and in the centre an old mole crouched still and peaceful, aged paws stretched harmlessly before him, snout settling down comfortably on to them. [p.412] [NP] (* 'Impossible!' Mullion WAS THINKING. [NP] 'Oh no, it's not', THOUGHT Bracken. AND THEN, 'Oh no,you don't!' *) as Mullion started angrily towards the old mole. But he got up, turned his snout to Mullion, seemed suddenly more powerful than anything Bracken had ever seen in his life, and without so much as flexing a talon, brought Mullion to a respectful halt. [NP] p.412: He turned to the big mole at the side of the chamber, who raised his snout, shook it, and said 'My name is Stonecrop, also of the Pasture system.' [NP] At this, both Bracken and Mullion started with surprise. (* 'Stonecrop!' THOUGHT Bracken. 'Stonecrop. Brother of Cairn. Known to Rebecca. So __that__[ital] was why ...'*) p.418: [NP] Experience like this also taught Bracken to appreciate that a fight between moles is not, at root, a physical thing at all but a spiritual confrontation. The very idea of spirit was new one to him and he only learned of it in himself by being made to observe it in other moles. (* Mullion for example, had a friendly, weak spirit with no 'hardness' or 'force' to it,*) and it was only when Bracken himself sensed this that he understood Medlar's immediate rejection of Mullion as a fighter. [NP] 'But it is his real spirit,' said Medlar, 'and it is therefore a powerful one, but it is not the spirit of a fighter. Win the loyalty of his spirit, however, and you are strong indeed.' [NP] Bracken found that Stonecrop, on the other hand, (* HAD A VERY HARD AND POWERFUL SPIRIT, THOUGH ONE THAT WAS INFLEXIBLE AND THEREFORE, IN MEDLAR'S TERMS, FAIRLY EASY TO GET ROUND.*) (* IN HIS OWN MIND, Bracken came to understand this by thinking of Stonecrop as a series of burrows and tunnels, not unlike the Barrow Vale, where, if a mole kept his head and spirit firm, he would eventually find a way through.*) It was understanding this that (* CLEARED BRACKEN OF HIS FEAR *) of Stonecrop --- and simultaneously made Stonecrop more respectful of Bracken. [NP] (* AS THESE INSIGHTS ABOUT FIGHTING CAME TO Bracken,*) he began to understand other things that Medlar had taught. One of them was the idea that there is no such thing as a talon lunge by itelf: a proper fighter lunges with his whole body, which for Medlar meant with his whole spirit. p.431: This mute exchange surprised Brome and he looked at Rebecca more closely, (* his curiosity sliding very quickly into a kind of uneasy awe.*) Never before had he been in the presence of a mole who gave him the impression that she knew exactly what he was feeling. He saw as well that she was very beautiful, with a coat of dark, silvery grey, whose sheen held the light of a clear sky after rain. [NP] (* HE HAD A DOZEN THINGS IN HIS MIND TO SAY, BUT THEY ALL FELL AWAY BEFORE HER STILL GAZE *) and (* HE SAID WHAT WAS IN HIS HEART: 'What are we going to do, Rebecca?' *) She came forward and touched him for a second, a touch that reassured him, and then she led the way back to Rose's tunnels where, without another word, they sealed the tunnels together, soil falling on their fur as with burrowing sweeps of their paws they retreated before it. It was the Pasture way of doing things. p.439: [NP] 'It's all right', she said. 'I will go to the Marsh End-- let's hope Mekkins is still secure. I want to go. Things are happening down there, I think. Here too. It's all changing, Brome and whatever you try to do, there's nothing you can do--but you must try.' She laughed at his bewilderment at her words and added: 'I only half understand what I'm saying myself. It's all right!' [NP] As Brome watched her leave, (* HE THOUGHT TO HIMSELF THAT *) there were times when she spoke with the same mysterious certainty Rose had sometimes had. As if she saw a world he could not see and there were no words to describe the realities within it. Yet as she left alone, how vulnerable she seemed, and for the first time (* HE SAW VERY CLEARLY *) how much in need of protection she really was. [NP] p.459: [NP] Near Rune, Nightshade slipped her body among the contorted and twisted shadows of the smaller roots of a beech tree--shapes it fitted perfectly. Her talons wound and wove with continuous movement as if she were caressing the night air into dangerous shapes as she snouted out the Stone beyond the darkness. She was casting spells for victory. [NP] 'When the moon is at its peak, Rune, I want to be free with the Stone, yes . . . mm . . . to wipe the blood of the young into its holes and crevices and make a curse on all the Marshenders unfortunate enough to survive. What a pity if they all died. Yes . . . mm . . .' [NP] Her voice was slimy, like a dying worm, (* BUT IT CLUNG TO THE MIND OF ANY WHO HEARD IT, SUFFOCATING ANY THOUGHT OF LOVE OR LIGHT OR COLOUR THAT MIGHT ALREADY BE THERE AND ABORTING ANY ABOUT TO BE BORN.*) Rune, however, wallowed in its sound. Nightshade had waited a long time for this night, as had the dark and treacherous generations whose dark endeavours had produced her, and other moles like her who had lived on the edge of the system until the darkness of Rune sucked them inside it, and to the very heart of Barrow Vale. Yes . . . mm . . . - p.559: [NP] The mole shook his head and said 'That is not possible. If the Holy Mole has not told you what today is, then I certainly may not do so. Trust in the Stone and go back to your burrow and meditate in peace.' [NP] (* 'Stuff this', THOUGHT BRACKEN TO HIMSELF,*) now thoroughly annoyed and resisting the impulse to attack the scribemole. He turned back the way he had come, nodding his head as if in agreement with the scribemole and thinking that rather than have a confrontation he would simply find some other way past the chamber. (* THE THOUGHT TURNED INTO ACTION *) as soon as he got back to the tunnel down which the two scribemoles who had ignored him had gone. He paused there, crouched down, and for the first time since he had come to Uffington felt his way into the tunnels about him. p.572: As Skeat had begun to curse Bracken, he stepped forward towards him, and Bracken automatically stepped back to the very edge of the massive drop into the chamber, for what mole dares raise a paw to such a holy mole as Skeat? Everything was confused in Bracken's mind, for he could not understand Skeat's words, or from where this terror had come to disturb the world of peace to which the song had carried him. He felt like a pup suddenly and violently cuffed by a mother or sibling who, until that moment, had only ever loved him. So he began to sob in unbelieving fear, weak with confusion, and retreating before a nightmare force. For his part, Skeat was quite as confused, for a Holy Mole is, as he himself had always said, only another mole at heart. What Bracken had done, or seemed to have done, had appalled him as nothing had ever in his life appalled him before. He had run through the tunnels, round to this second viewing point the sound of the song echoing in his ears and (* THE PICTURE OF THE INTRUDING Bracken IN HIS MIND, BUT WITH WHAT INTENT HE HAD NO IDEA.*) [NP] When he saw Bracken, the curse came from him as if he had no control over it, and his confusion increased, growing even worse as Bracken retreated towards the void of the chamber behind, looking not like a guilty mole or one who thinks he has done something wrong, but like a pup who has lost his mother and needs help. p.575: Eventually, he [Bracken], too, fell into a kind of trance and began to think of Skeat, of what little Boswell had told him and what little he had seen of him when they had talked. It was as he did so that (* AN IDEA CAME TO HIM, A SUGGESTION, A POSSIBILITY, THAT GREW IN HIS MIND ONLY SLOWLY AS LIGHT GROWS AT DAWN ON A WINTER'S MORNING.*..) He broke the silence around him with it, speaking it out almost (..* BEFORE THE THOUGHT WAS CLEARLY INTO HIS MIND:*) [NP] 'There is one thing I could do, or try to do if the Stone would give me strength', he began, speaking in such a weak and broken voice that it was hard to hear him. There was a murmur among the chosen moles, and they looked up from their prayers at him. [NP] p.578: Well, perhaps it could, perhaps it would, and 'perhaps' became a word Rebecca grew tired of using. A mole must live where a Stone has put her, or him, and with those moles who happen by circumstance or fate to be living in the same system. And nomole was more aware than Rebecca, healer now to the system of Duncton, that (* HOPES AND MEMORIES ARE LIKE WINTER ACONITE, A SOURCE OF HEALTH AND JOY IF USED ONE WAY, A DEBILITATING POISON IF USED ANOTHER.*) So, as the summer advanced, (* SHE PUT HER Bracken FROM HER MIND *) and concentrated all her energies on helping the moles about her. [NP] p.583: The young who had been pups in spring now became adults, settling into their own territory in the wide and expansive Ancient System and putting their life into finding today's food rather than talking about yesterday's battles. [NP] (* Bracken, too, BECAME A MEMORY,*) an especially romantic and dramatic one it is true, but a memory all the same. (* IN THE MINDS OF THE YOUNG, his leadership against Rune and Mandrake was more legend than contemporary history,*) and though many a youngster crouched by the Stone and gazed towards the west just as Bracken was said to have done, few could really believe he still existed, or could now come back. p.583-584: Some say now that it was a sudden vicious autumn hailstorm that reminded her of the blizzard that Mandrake had once dragged her into on the pastures, when she was a pup. Others, that it was simply that special sense she had always had of where her healing was needed. Whatever it was, she knew that one day soon she must leave Duncton and [p.584] seek out Siabod, where her father had come from. Oh, she remembered the blizzard now, and understood again the terrible cry from Mandrake she had heard, and which all her life with him she had never learned how to answer so that he could trust her love. [NP] But the very absurdity of making such a journey, the inevitability of her dying on the way, was so great that for days (* SHE DARED NOT EVEN ADMIT the possibility of doing it TO HERSELF.*) p.604: Therefore the Stones themselves mean nothing. He wanted to show that the Stone all moles worship and Siabod moles have always revered is nothing. He wanted at once to show how he despised our fears and mocked our belief. Remember, in those days before the plague, all moles were made to worship the Stone, but Y Wrach taught him not to, at least she told him to take no part in our rituals. But then Mandrake said, What Stone can exist when such suffering as was wrought by his own birth can exist? And after the plague came a lot of us came to see he was right, see?' [NP] (* THE THOUGHT HUNG ABOUT THEM, EACH CONSIDERING IT IN A DIFFERENT WAY.*) For Boswell the answer was as simple and as peaceful as sitting still; for Bracken, who had seen plenty of suffering in his own tlme, it was a questlon he had never been able to answer. For Bran, it was not much worth thinking about. They could not tell what Celyn thought at all. [NP] p.611: [NP] As the chanting music of her voice fell away, Celyn spoke the final words and then there was a long silence, Bracken never taking his eyes from her as (* THE IMAGES she had invoked of age, and of quest, and of Mandrake, to whom she spoke as if he were still alive, MELDED IN HIS MIND AND SOARED TO THE Stones of Siabod *) where he knew he must go.[EP] p.619: There was a kind of courage Boswell had seen in moles many times that was born of ignorance and stupidity. Give such a mole a task, tell him to get on with it, and off he goes. But Bracken? He was not stupid, he had so many things he understood and sought to live for, and yet on he went in the wake of this fearful odour. [NP] (* 'Truly the Stone was wise to have bound me to Bracken', THOUGHT BOSWELL,*) following with something near a rueful grin. [NP] They very soon found they had good cause to fear, for as the path took them nearer to the stark rock face at the end of Cwmoer, leaving the lake now some way behind and below them, they moved straight into the terrible smell again, this time finding as well the awesome tracks of the creature that had made it. p.627: There had been another mole here, the only other mole that had dared venture in his lifetime into Cwmoer. No good pretending he [a hound] had (* forgotten,*) though many killings had (* ASSUAGED THE MEMORY.*) A bigger, darker mole than either of these two, with talons as strong as a badger's. That mole had faced him as well and not run away. Its odour was the fiercest of any creature he had ever faced. Faced! Does a hound talk of facing a mole! In his nightmares he did, when he remembered the power in the mole who had faced him contemptuously somewhere among these slate tips. He knew where. (* SLOWLY HE ADMITTED THE MEMORY TO HIS MIND *) and (* SAW AGAIN THE GREAT MOLE *) who had snarled back at him near this very spot, talons as ready to kill as his own, and had finally passed him dismissively by, turning its back contemptuously on him and ignoring his howls. Gelert's baleful eyes searched the great cliffs about him, feeling that something was there and was staring at him, wishing him ill and robbing him of his pleasure and will. He began to howl, while beneath the slate, Bracken began to move, stirring himself into the action which he knew he must take and which now (* NO LONGER CAST A SINGLE SHADOW OF FEAR INTO HIS HEART.*) p.636: [NP] The first thing Bracken noticed about Rebecca was that she was with litter, and not his litter. The second was that she was (* NOT THE MOLE, THE FICTITIOUS FEMALE, HE HAD CREATED IN HIS IMAGINATION *) in the long moleyears of their separation. This was not the mole he had prayed for, whose memory had comforted him, (* WHOSE CARESS HAD BECOME IN HIS MIND LIKE THE MUSIC OF WATER OR WIND.*) She was tired, she was older, she was worried. [EP] p.637: [NP] But there was an air of distrust about Bracken's contact with Rebecca which put an impassable barrier between them so that, although both ached for an expression of love, neither knew how it could be given. (* THE FACT THAT SHE WAS WITH LITTER MADE HIM ANGRY AND TURNED AND TWISTED IN HIS MIND AND PUT A BARRIER OF SUSPICION AND JEALOUSY BEFORE HIS EYES.*) [EP] p.687: [NP] Bracken watched indifferently--names didn't mean much to him. In fact, he was thinking of something else, as fathers often do when faced by the wonder of new life they have not borne themselves yet have helped to create and before which they may often feel a curious impotence. (* `Can these pups really live to be adult?' THEY THINK,*) as they gaze in awe at the weak, blind things that carry life in every single movement they make. [NP] The four rolled and tangled up before him and (* Bracken's MIND TOOK HIM BACK TO THE BLIZZARD *) on Moel Siabod and he wondered how such tiny things--for Rebecca's Siabod litter could have been no bigger-- could ever have survived conditions in which he himself had nearly died. The thought was horrifying. p.702: [NP] How big he was now, how strong and young, and Rebecca could not help smiling with love at the contrast he made with Bracken, whose face and sides were scarred with the fights he had been in but whose eyes held the clear light of peace Tryfan's did not yet have. But how hard-won had Bracken's peace been, and how much courage a mole needed to hold on to it! Rebecca knew that the times Bracken spent with the Stone were not always easy for him. They weren't for her. [NP] It was at that moment, as Tryfan gazed on their love together, and perhaps (* WITH THEIR WORDS DURING THEIR LONG CONVERSATIONS ABOUT the Stillstone STILL IN HIS MIND, that the FIRST DEFINITE MEMORIES of the Midsummer Night when he had got lost BEGAN TO STIR IN HIS MIND.*) [NP] Soon after, he went up to the Stone and crouched by it in silence as the cold evening darkened about him and wind stirred at the leaf litter, wet from afternoon drizzle, as (* THOSE MEMORIES BECAME CLEARER AND HE SAW AGAIN, IN HIS MIND, THE GLIMMER OF the Stillstone.*) Then he began to talk to the Stone, seeking its guidance and help, as so many moles of so many generations had done before him. a